It sickens me how people can use my insecurities in order to hurt me.

Do you think I don’t tell myself all those things that you just said to me?  Do you know how many times I looked at myself in the mirror and just cried? How many times I cried myself to sleep? Do you know all the times I’ve came close to starving myself? Cutting? Do you know how hard I have to work for just the slightest ounce of self esteem? And how just one “joke” can send it all crashing down?

Exactly, you don’t…….

Sometimes I like to joke about my weight, and that’s fine. But when other people make jokes. Its no longer funny. It’s just hurtful…. And they honestly don’t understand what those words do to me…

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*sigh* I’m seriously tired of looking at myself in the mirror and absolutely hating the person I’m seeing….

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